For all that I went through and experienced during the birth of my baby, it was all worth it…
Daphne Ayesha is almost 2 months now and she’s really a joy, except when she’s angry and irritatable and especially hungry. Haha…
Let me recount now what happened before I gave birth to a bouncing baby girl.
The week before – I was already having contractions so I went on leave from work. Almost everyday, I was at a different mall to walk for a few hours. Thinking it would help with my labor, I walked and walked.
A few days before – I encountered a sharp pain, I thought that was it. So we went to the hospital to have me checked. It turned out it was false alarm. I was told by my doctor to go home.
1 day before – Around 8 in the morning, I went to do number 1, there was blood but there was no water. So I panicked and woke up my hubby. We went to the hospital but drove by a fastfood chain to buy breakfast, for I won’t be able to eat anymore if I went inside the delivery room. And my mother in law told me that I need to eat so that I will have energy to go through the labor process. I ate then went inside the delivery room, I was examined again and was told that my cervix hasn’t even opened yet. They called my doctor and she told me I could still go home if I wanted to. I said I wanted to stay already, since there was blood already and I was supposed to have another ultrasound the next day to check the level of amniotic fluid inside my tummy. So I was admitted and I just watched tv the whole day. I wasn’t allowed to go out anymore. I walked some more inside the room, but I don’t think that helped. I was still feeling discomfort but it was still tolerable. During night time, I decided to drink the Chinese Herbal Medicine they said would facilitate a faster contraction and would help dilate my cervix.
The day – 12 mn – I drank the Chinese Herbal Medicine.
3 am – I started feeling intolerable pain. I can’t sleep anymore. I kept on tossing and turning on my bed. I was crying because I can’t take the pain anymore. It was just unbearable. My hubby didn’t know what to do anymore. He even offered me to just have a caesarean operation to get it over and done with.
730am – Ever since I was admitted, I was being internally examined every few hours. My cervix being monitored for dilation. So finally, around 730 the morning of July 12, I was admitted inside the delivery room, after I had my breakfast.
730 am to 12nn – I was inside the delivery room, I hoped I just stayed in my room. Same thing, every hour I was being checked for dilation. The pain was really intolerable anymore. I was having contractions already, but my cervix is not opening as it should be. I can’t do anything but wait and feel pain. I was told I had low pain tolerance. Since I can’t bear the pain anymore, I was asked by my doctor if I wanted to have anaesthesia shot already. Epidural was shot around 12nn.
12nn to 2pm – Another inexplainable feeling I felt when I was being given the epidural. There were so many people. I felt dizzy, I felt naked, I felt violated even. One good thing about it though, after the 1st dose of epidural, I didn’t feel the contractions anymore. I was just lying there inside the actual delivery room, not the waiting room inside the delivery room. There were nurses, resident doctors, my real doctor. Since I wasn’t feeling pain anymore, I was able to talk with the resident doctor who was monitoring me. For the first time in 24 hours, I was actually feeling happy and pain-free! That was until the 1st dose of epidural faded.
2pm to 5pm – I suddenly felt the contractions again, so I asked for another shot. The bad thing about it, the anaesthesiologist was nowhere to be found, so it was the resident doctor who gave me the shot. And it failed to do its purpose. It wasn’t as effective as the 1st dose. I felt super unbearable pain. The same thing with the 3rd dose. I was slightly screaming because of the pain I was encountering. I never imagined childbirth being this painful. I was even asking the doctors why the shots weren’t effective and why I was still feeling pain. They told me it was because my cervix was fully dilated already and that the head of my baby is down there already. I didn’t know a thing, so I just stayed put and bear the pain and believed what they told me. It was as if I was drug free, I wasn’t pain free.
5pm to 630pm – At last, the anaesthesiologist came by and he was the one who gave me the 4th dose of my epidural. And I was actually pain free again. This meant that the resident doctor just didn’t know how to give the shot efficiently. And that what she told me about me being fully dilated, and shot not effective because of that wasn’t true at all. Because if it were true, how come I can smile and talk to my doctor again. I even kidded that I don’t want to endure this kind of pain again ever!
630pm to 730pm – The baby hasn’t come out yet, I was fully dilated already at 10cm. The head was stuck already. My water was already broke, it was punctured by my doctor, it didn’t broke by itself. All this time, I kept on pushing and pushing. My arms were tired and sore. My hubby was worrying so much, he asked the doctor what’s my status and if I can still go through the labor. By this time, I was already 12 hours into labor. I don’t have enough energy in my body anymore. Good thing I was pitied by my doctor, she allowed me to have a sip of water. Around 730pm – my hubby went inside the delivery room and we decided to just forgo normal delivery and undergo caesarean operation. It was also the best thing to do that time because we wanted to avoid putting the baby into stress.
730pm to 757pm – After we decided, I was immediately transferred to the operation room. I was put and tied into the cross bed, was given the allergy shot and soon given the general anaesthesia. I was naked and for the whole world to see. I remembered asking my anaesthesiologist to reposition my arm because I wasn’t comfortable. Only to sleep away and feel numbness all throughout my body. I felt my doctor doing the incision but there was no pain. That was the last thing I remembered, until I heard my baby cry. After awhile I opened my eyes and she was beside me. We were taken a picture then I dozed off again.
757pm to 2am the next day – I woke up in the recovery room feeling itchy, hot and thirsty. I kept asking the nurse to wet my lips, to remove the lamp, to turn up the aircon.
3am – I was wheeled away, I saw my hubby waiting for me. He kissed me and we went straight in my room. Then my sister was also there waiting. I was not allowed still to drink water, and talk.
Here’s my labor story. I know, the word pain was mentioned a lot. But forgive me, because it’s all I can remember feeling that day.
I hope the one reading this, whether a man or a woman, pregnant or not, will learn something.
Until next post!